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[13 Dec 2006|12:47am] |
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I finally got all my crap done. I'm very proud of myself. Had Professor Severson's class for the last time today, thank god. She drove me up a wall all semester.
I've been doing a lot of thinking about cosplaying because that's all I ever think about really. I've decided a few things about it....I'm going to remake my Marron cosplay and maybe another Miyu. Started figuring out exactly what I have to do to make my cosplays for '07 kickass. It'll be fun.
I've been listening to a lot of celtic music lately...not really sure why. It's fun though.
Found someone who is interested in having me model for them for a series of poetry work. Cosplayer meets creative writing....I'm in. Sounds fascinating, really.
Wheeee~ the semester is almost over!
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| In search of answers |
[15 Aug 2006|10:05pm] |
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Hey everyone. I've decided I want to figure out why something happens....
It has come to my attention that a cosplay hate site exists of which people post pictures of other cosplayers and rip them down to nothing. This site has over 2300 members.
A similar site exists just to promote cosplay and spread information about it without tearing anyone down. At the moment, there are 1396 active members on it.
I want to know why hate spreads more and faster than love. What is it in the human mind that stimulates us to anger before caring? I know that this is going to take me a long time to figure out completely. If I act strangely randomly, chances are I'm experimenting with an idea that came of it. So yeah. Anyone with input, please feel free, I'm extending this experiment to all so I can figure this out.
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| Better now |
[26 Jun 2006|09:33pm] |
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Sorry about my last really bitchy post...it's really not the greatest of times for me to be mad at people.
Bossy Dad + PMS + Sleep Deprivation + Potentially bad situations = Revenge thirsty Jenn
But I put myself in check and now I'm okay. ^^ all is well...I still have my friends and my cosplays and I'm going to college and my mom got me a job. All is well
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| I'm leaving today |
[18 Feb 2006|07:19am] |
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Going on an overnighter with a friend to spend time with her and also to help clear my mind. Here is my much deserved vacation, and though it's only one night, I don't care.
For those of you who care, I'm going to Amherst.
While I'm up there, I'm getting more photoshoots for my cosplays, so I'll have pics when I come home. Hai hai.
Probably taking Gogo, Jade, Kitana, and Hyde, possibly Silver Millenium Sailor Saturn.
Wohoo!
I realized this week that I'm officially completely out of the loop just because I'm that insane. Yeah...people starting going out and breaking up and I'm not finding out until much later. So sorry for my lack of social knowledge...I swear it's not on purpose...but I need to finish these cosplays or else I don't get paid. And not getting paid can be a slight problem.
Starting a bank account on Thursday. Good day for business.
Okay, so that's my life. I'll be back tomorrow night at anywhere between 9-11.
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This is now a friends only journal. Want to be my friend? Leave me a comment and I'll add you. Sorry for the inconvenience!
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[05 Nov 2005|10:51pm] |
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I am off the crutches. Score life, I am walking again better than I was.
Found some new Dar Williams lyrics to reflect with:
"Oh my fair North Star
I have held to your dearly
I have asked you to steer me
To one cloud scattered night
I got lost in my travels
I met Leo the Lion
Met and a king and met a giant
With their errant light
There's the wind and the rain
And the mercy of the fallen
Who say they have no claim to know what's right
There's the weak and the strong
And the beds that have no answer
And that's where I may rest my head tonight" ~The Mercy of the Fallen
I went to the game today and I was informed that there have been problems in guard since I got hurt. It's depressing, but expected. As much as I hate being sidelined, I'm loving not having to deal with the drama that is the RFH color guard. I was watching TNT one day and decided that I'm going to redesign their logo to fit color guard and then steal their slogan, "we know drama". Someday I'll make it a point to do that. The drama is killing me...it's most of what's making me not want to come back after I graduate. People also don't like the way I do things as captain which I hear about and it gets on my nerves...yes guys, I know some of you think I'm a horrible captain, but put yourself in my shoes and you'll see why. Have a parent tape the field show for you...it's horrific. So don't bitch and whine about how I'm insensitive to people's needs because I have bigger fish to fry. Ha...why do I care? My next thing I am eligble to do is Thanksgiving...and then it's over ^.^.
Took the SATs today, I don't think I did that bad.
That's all I feel like saying for now. Later.
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| My Halloween |
[01 Nov 2005|09:11am] |
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The Halloween parades were long and annoying on Sunday, but what really sucked about them was that after all was said and done and I was walking back to my car, my foot got caught in a hole in the ground and I sprained my ankle. So yesterday at 7 in the morning, I went to the hospital and got it examined and got an air cast and crutches. Fair enough, I suppose. I'm also supposed to rest it for a few days which I've been doing.
So in an attempt to take my mind off the pain, my parents took me to a showing of a documentary at Monmouth University called "The Shadows of Shadow Lawn". It was about all the hauntings at Monmouth U and they proved lots of stuff and it was completely fascinating. We got there a bit early and so I was looking around at different posters for upcoming events there and I saw one for a concert on the 18th I'm going to that has 4 Irish performers...one of which is my distant cousin Sharon Shannon who is devastating. So after all that was said and done, I crutched my way to the car and we left.
At about 4:30, I got into my cosplay (Kami Illuminati with Labcoat plus crutches) and sat outside with a bowl of candy and a book to read and waited for people to show up. It was boring at first but after a while, Jason and Dani Cox showed up and they gave me candy and we talked about cosplaying and Final Fantasy and other such things and it was awesome. Then Jackie, Werner and 2 of his friends showed up and everyone left and I crutched back inside and watched The Crow. While I was sitting outside, AJ passed by and did a double take of my outfit and I just laughed because it freaked him out. I also had a lot of people ask me if the crutches were part of the outfit. Oh well. I missed the senior breakfast and opportunity to beat some Narutards, but whatever, that's what Otakon's for.
Because of my injury, I am out of gym and practices/games for 2 weeks. Meaning I'll show up at guard practices and such, though I can't participate in them. I also can't audition for jazz tonight since my pedal foot is injured. Such is life though. Maybe this is the answer I needed.
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| Growl.... |
[28 Oct 2005|03:09pm] |
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People have been telling me to have an 18th birthday party and to invite them. Amidst this I have been putting up with more of people's crap than I really want to be dealing with at all. I therefore have decided I am not going to make the effort of having a birthday party because it will lead to more stress and aggrivation. Most of the people I'd invite are in college and will not be able to make it. The others live in Michigan and it's too far away for just one party. So why have a party if the people who mean most to me aren't going to be there? It's not worth it at all. So sorry to burst your bubble, children, but I am not in any mood to think about having one at all. Another reason is that it may make me want to stay at RFH longer than I have to....a chance I'm not willing to take.
For my birthday, I will probably stay at home doing nothing. Who honestly will care anyway?
I have this unending urge to rip people apart and devour their souls. My distance from people is because of this and I don't want to get myself into trouble during my senior year. So don't bother me unless you're willing to risk me biting you...and believe me, I will. My patience has cracked and my trust in people has lowered even more.
God I wish I was out of here....the people of RFH have pushed my past my limits both in my classes and activities alike. I refuse to be bothered with this shit anymore because it's fuckers constantly telling me what to do and how to think and threatening me that I am getting tired of. I am the captain in color guard, my word goes. I am a cosplayer, if you don't like it, go fuck yourself (twice if you insult my selections). And I'm really hoping that I get into Olivet and not Monmouth so I can leave here and never return.
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| I HATE RFH |
[27 Oct 2005|02:54pm] |
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So...in English class we're doing this political project where we have to post on a messageboard and respond to other people's and so on and so forth and if a topic is "full" if it has 3 posts. So I did my work on the assignment, I posted as they wanted me to. However I woke up this morning to find that my posts were 4th, 5th, and possibly 3rd on the lists. I went in to speak to my English teacher and she pretty much said "well then it sucks to be you" because there aren't any other posts other than my own and I can't reply to that for credit. So after being pissed off about that, she went more into the world writing unit which makes me wanna bring an American flag into class to begin with and she subtly bashed the government. I go to English class to study English and literature....not my teacher's political views. So what the crap? I have to sit there and be lectured about how the government keeps information from me? I'd rather take an F than have someone try to change my opinion and hate America. I saw it coming too....and as a student of RFH, there's nothing I can do about it. It's bullshit, I know my rights outside of school, but inside the walls of the classrooms, I have no say and neither do any of the other students. Want to do well? Suck up to the teachers...I promise you'll pass with flying colors. Sorry, but that's not what I do. I am the rebel of the zodiac and my nature is chaos. If I don't wanna deal with something, you'll know it, and if I have to do it anyway, I'll rebel among what I do have power over. For example, in 8th grade, Mr. Galante made us read the New York Times a lot and after a while I got tired of it and brought in a New York Post and read it right in front of him. I gained respect from him by doing this whether he will admit it or not. So if they're going to expose their political views and show America in a negative light, the cards are on the table, let's play.
So after that, we had Tower Singers and we evaluated our performance. Joe and someone else who wasn't named brought up a really good point that there is a huge talking issue and I wholeheartedly agree with them. You have time during the day to talk, but don't do it when we're trying to get through something. But what REALLY bothered me about that is that during said conversation, people were talking and fooling around on both sides of the room. TOWER SINGERS IS NOT A PLACE TO SIT AND TALK DESPITE PRIOR BELIEF. YOU ARE TAKING IT FOR CREDIT AND WHEN YOU PERFORM YOU ARE REPRESENTING THE SCHOOL. SO GROW UP AND ACT LIKE IT, BITCHES. Enough said.
The gym teachers show serious serious favoritism to the athletes in the class and it's bothering me because they get special treatment. They get away with more than anyone else can who isn't an athlete. Roar.
So what did I learn today? I learned that no matter how hard I work, I cannot change things. People will always be annoying and get on my nerves and exhibit behaviors that my parents worked hard to keep me away from (and did a really good job of doing so). If you are not popular, you are weak and powerless in the eyes of society. And I am at the bottom of the food chain, it seems. Well children, I'm tired of being shoved in a corner. I'm not taking what society tells me to do with a grain of salt anymore. I am a conservative adolescent living in the United States of America and my personality is frowned upon by people. I am not bowing down to them anymore, I am my own person and it is my job to get as far in life as I can. So screw opinions, screw values...I'm taking matters into my own hands now. I will be heard if it the last thing I do!!!!!
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| Somehow being sick is making me think... |
[24 Oct 2005|06:49pm] |
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I caught a bit of a cold on top of some other things so I missed school today and slept a lot on top of drinking lots of green tea. It gave me too much time to think for my own good. This song "Beautiful Enemy" I've been listening to is applying itself to people in my life.
One thing that I'd like to bring up is something I've been hearing from a couple of people which is my relationship with Corey. Yes, I have a boyfriend and though the only time I see him really is during play practices, people think that we're not intimate enough. Now hold on a second...I've had issues with guys in my past, ranging from attempted molestation to getting stalked...therefore my trust factor has to be rebuilt. This does not mean in anyway that I am not happy with Corey because he's really sweet and funny and just great to be around. People ask me "have you guys even kissed?" and the answer is yes, we have. Have we done anything more than that? Not really. TMI moment? Sorry. It's just that my previous history with guys makes me want to pull away from intimacy and lean towards a friendship because sex hounds are after one thing and I'm pretty sure I don't have to spell that out for you. Corey and I have a friendship based relationship and I feel that for now, that's comfortable for me. So the answer stands, yes, even though Corey and I aren't the most intimate of couples, we are still a couple and we're happy.
Reflecting on everything, this year so far has been a huge learning experience for me as well as presenting several challenges that I am working hard to overcome. My closest friends have been helping me through it night after night, and for that, I thank you all. As I scratch and claw my way towards graduation with the overambition of getting out, I have to push myself above the immature people I've found myself dealing with recently in almost everything I do. What should I say to them...this:
-You are young and yet you make huge things out of nothing
-You will not die if you don't have a significant other or if you don't see your boyfriend or girlfriend for more than 24 hours. Also, PDAs are annoying in the hallways of RFH.
-Suck ups are annoying and deserve to be smacked
-It is not my fault for the fact that you don't know what you're doing cuz you didn't practice. So save yourself the tears and bitchiness and spend 5 minutes to work something out instead of yelling at me about it because it'll help and frankly, I don't wanna hear it.
-Don't insult people behind their backs...word travels fast here
And yes, it's also true that Shei has become one of my best friends. Yet people insult my friendship with her or the fact that I talk about her all the time. I'm sorry if this bothers you, but in my eyes, I have found one of my best friends and I feel honored to know her. She is really nice to me and I have a connection with her that I can say I don't have with anyone else and I'm learning sooo much from her. And yes, it's true she has a sisterly hero impact on me. To have her as a friend is something that I am thankful for as well as many other people, so just because you say that I talk about her too much isn't going to make me bow down to you and stop talking.
Those are the biggest issues I have with people here. I'd also like to add that yes, cosplay is a HUGE part of my life as well as Otakon and my study of the Japanese language and culture. The only one with true insulting rights is Angela because we are even (due to the fact that I can say she's addicted to WoW). So don't insult my work or my dedication to my craft because I work really really hard on them and use what knowledge of sewing to make my work look the best that it possibly can. Yes, it's true, my cosplays are top priority next to getting into college. Also, don't insult my choice of cosplays. Don't like the fact that I don't do more things like Naruto or One Piece or Final Fantasy? Want to know why? BECAUSE I'M NOT A MAINSTREAM COSPLAY WHORE LIKE SO MANY OTHER PEOPLE ARE. So what if people don't know who I am...it makes it all the better when someone does recognize me.
So what have we learned today, kiddies? My name is Jennifer Jean Noonan and I have a horrible case of senioritis. My best friends are cosplayers which fuels my drive to cosplay even more. And despite immature people I have to deal with day in and day out, I like my life. To my Beautiful Enemies who hate the words I've typed here:
Oh my enemy, beautiful enemy
Hail to your vast hegemony
You're not innocent
I'm not innocent
No one's innocent.
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[23 Oct 2005|04:37pm] |
Homecoming was yesterday. I think my dress was cool looking but I haven't seen any pics yet so I have no idea. The game was cold and rainy and I felt really sick, but Jason, Jackie, and TC were there, so that helped make me feel a little better. People also were pretty loud when we were doing the field show which suprised me and made me feel happy about things, though I'm still irritated at people. Whatever though, 32 days, I can handle it.
Have a HUGE running list of cosplay photo ops for Otakon 2006 and it amuses me. Our official army slogan is "Got Yaoi?" and it's devastating because most of our pictures are going to scream yaoi. I've even managed to tie "This is Otakudom" into it which is awesome to us. I also started making one of my Saturn cosplays today.
I really need to get a digital camera. As a cosplayer, pictures are important to me so I can catch flaws and see what needs improvement, and to look at what has improved over time. Just thought I'd say that.
New rule for Band Breakfast driving: I will only take people who will accept listening to a JRock/JPop CD of my choice. No acceptions or whining or I'll make you get out of my car and walk...this is where I am like my father. My car, my rules, sorry. ^.~ And if you do like JRock/JPop, believe me, I have a couple of awesome CDs so yeah.
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| Freshman egos make me laugh |
[21 Oct 2005|03:33pm] |
So the pep rally was today. We did the finale of our field show and got lots of applause and it was cool. However, amidst that, people were being like :: hiss :: because we were wearing parts of the uniform they didn't like, even though we captains specifically said they'd be wearing it....if you don't like it, bite me. The funny thing is though, they're mainly frosh that say this. And I laugh at them all because they're like I CAN BE A BETTER CAPTAIN and I'm like pfft, go ahead if you think it's that easy. Once I get the hell out of here, I'm not turning back, especially if I go to Olivet College in Michigan.
And if they're not whining about decisions, they're getting sarcastic at me....one of my newbies has gone from overly to shy to overly sarcastic and it's going to end up being problems for her if she keeps it up. It also bothers me because it shows she has a lack of respect for authority and superiors. It's getting to the point where I've decided to stay in guard to help my transcript and getting into college, however my patience level is close to it's limit and god only knows what will happen then. So keep pushing me children, let's see the inner demon inside of me that I work hard to keep in for a reason because it is dangerous and when it's out, there's no negotiating.
Realized that I still love color guard....unless it's my own. Went to All Shore and loved watching the other bands and guards, and I'm even going to a football game tonight to see other bands in action and I'm looking foward to it. Yet I'm praying tomorrow gets rained out. Ha! I'm a walking paradox! 33 days until Thanksgiving. Wohoo! Almost a month, then I'm done! PRAISE THE GODDESS I'LL BE OUT OF HERE SOON!!!
Otakon is what is keeping me pushing foward...the knowledge that I'll see Shei-chan there. My love of cosplay is keeping me sane...somewhat. We have minions for the cosplay army from other places since the local people (minus college people) suck and won't help out. Bastards, the god of cosplay will get his vengeance someday on your pathetic souls. Looks like I'll be boarding with Shei as well which will be awesome because I won't have to worry about chasing people around the con since I'll be with them the whole time XD. I win again!! And yes, children, it's true, I finished 2 cosplays.
Roar. 33 days till Thanksgiving and about 7 months (roughly 210 days) until graduation! Then I'm B-Lining out of here and not looking back because it's not worth it! HA HA HA!!! XD
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| Beautiful Enemy |
[16 Oct 2005|08:37pm] |
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Shei-chan sent me these lyrics. After listening to the song a few times, I realized that they apply to some people in my life and I feel like posting them because they're powerful and true in some cases:
I saw your flag
Another star, another stripe
What's your new bag?
Something real or just some hype
Tell me, what have you sown
Have you prospered and grown?
Why shouldn't you have your moments of genius
Just because our alliance broke with no
Civil words between us
Oh, my beautiful enemy, beautiful
I send my scorn and ridicule
You're not innocent
No, not innocent
No one's innocent
My nation's grand
Your name's not on any signs
It's so well-planned
And well-groomed and yet somehow
The past tornadoes through
People talk about you
Can't they see that your reign
Is steely and torturous?
I start thinking that I am sinking
Inside a hollow fortress
Oh, my enemy, beautiful enemy
My stride is slowed by memory but
Not innocent
No, not innocent
No one's innocent
In my furies of dream
The juries denounce you
There I stand with the upper hand
But in order to trounce you
I just keep getting above myself
I just keep getting above myself
And so I'm worried but as I stated
Things can be complicated, but
You're my enemy
You're my enemy
You're my enemy
The future's bright
There are new things we will love
It feels so right
Let's not make up or rise above
Yes, we are more corrupted
Happy and productive
We'll both live in a world of civilized
People
Though I've heard that my brand new church
Has a slightly higher steeple
Oh, my enemy, beautiful enemy
Hail to your vast hegemony
You're not innocent
I'm not innocent
No one's innocent
Oh, my enemy, beautiful enemy
Hail to your vast hegemony
You're not innocent
I'm not innocent
No one's innocent
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[16 Oct 2005|09:45am] |
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Okay. I'm about 3 months away from turning 18. I have my license, I've been driving myself a lot more, my parents are starting to trust me a lot. So why is it that when they're in Chicago, they feel the need to get me a babysitter? They left on Thursday and left me home with my Aunt Denise who has done nothing but nag, bitch, eat, sleep, and go to the bathroom......let alone bleed all over my bed. She has this way of thinking that she can just string her panties in the bathroom as if it's her own house. I am now afraid to use my own bathroom and have started avoiding it and using my parents' even though it selectively works and is a lot smaller. Not only that, but she uses my bathroom to go to the bathroom and it seems like something dies in her every day and it's really gross to smell. It's even starting to make my bedroom smell bad.
When she doesn't wash her panties in the sink, she makes me throw in a load of wash even if we don't have enough whites and I tell her that and she abruptly responds "I need them....put it on the lowest setting, it'll work"....PS, Aunt Denise, last time we tried that, the washing machine died. So I had to wash towels that might have been clean, I'm not really sure. All because she wanted her panties. What the crap....
She also gives her opinions against everything....for example my homecoming dress. She got mad at me because I didn't want to press the seam because I thought it looked cool. She said she didn't like my Kami outfit because of the spikes and that I shouldn't wear them. Is there a law anywhere that says Jenn Noonan cannot wear spikes? Wanna tell her there isn't? If it were up to her, girls would still be wearing long skirts and thick shirts that are heavy and don't reveal any skin at all.
And this morning, I was washing my hair to get ready for the game that I have to go to and she was in the bathroom so I couldn't shower, so I decided, I'm clean, I'll just wash my hair. So I started washing it in the kitchen sink while listening to a CD on the stereo. I get to my favorite part of the second song when all of a sudden the TV gets turned up really loud and there's screaming. Not realizing that my aunt would rather watch something else, I whipped my head up, got water all over the kitchen from it, and noticed that it was the TV. I then went back to washing my hair.
I feel that now that my parents are letting me drive alone and stuff, that maybe they'd trust me to stay alone? But no. I'd be happy if it were Aunt Linda or any of my mom's other sisters here. But no. I have to be stuck with the Aunt who does nothing but praise my brother and that son of a bitch that I am forced to call my cousin because we're genetically bound to it. If her family is so amazing, why doesn't she just stay with them? I don't want her here, she gets on my nerves. She nags about my friends, about the fact that I listen to music when I drive, the shows and movies I watch, hell she even nags about the JRock I listen to and how I say the names of the characters on the flashcards I'm reading for Japanese. This is utter BS, children. Thank god my parents are coming home tomorrow and before they do, I'll be at school. Praise the goddess, I'll be free again! Assuming she goes home on Tuesday.....please, oh please Karma Bus leave me alone, I didn't do anything to you!
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| One Down, 11 to finish |
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So I finished my Kami Illuminati + Labcoat cosplay though I am yet to put it all together. Sometime tonight I want to do that since I have lots of free time. I am now ready to post my list of cosplays for the 2006 season. Please note that they are not in any order and that Jade may replace Kitana from Mortal Kombat:
In Progress cosplays for 2006:
AnimeNEXT: Princess Kitana (Mortal Kombat), Super Sailor Saturn (Sailor Moon), Yoshiki (X Japan), Saturn Silver Millenium (Original Sailor Moon)
Otakon: Kami Memorial (Malice Mizer Original), Kami Illuminati (Malice Mizer), Michiru Junior High Fuku (Sailor Moon), You (Gacktjob), Hyde Live In America (L'Arc~En~Ciel), Mugen Fuku (Sailor Moon), Gogo Yubari (Kill Bill)
So far I haven't gotten any commissions for cosplays from anyone....better off this way for now with 11 other cosplays underway. I'm excited about it. I also put the finishing touches on my frying pan.
I attained first violin in orchestra for the song "Danse Macabre" and it's kinda hard but I'm working on it. My parents are in Chicago and it's raining a lot. Can't really drive because the roads are flooding. Oh well....
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| My Night |
[01 Oct 2005|10:44pm] |
After a day of garage sale-ing and buying lots of sweet stuff, cleaning, and sleeping, I had an interesting night to say the least.
At 5, Jason came over and we hung out for a bit before we left for a competition in Brick that UMass' marching band was performing at as a special guest. On the way there, we saw 2 accidents...one happened in the intersection and it did some serious damage to the front of someone's car. The person at fault fled the scene and so I was like I hope they get what they deserve. Then we passed the scene of another accident and then we were on our way.
We got there and sat down and watched a band or two before UMass took the field. When we knew they were about to, we moved closer to the 50 where we found Mrs. Ferretti and Emily so we sat with them and hung out with them as we watched and listened to them. We cheered for Robin and Justine loudly and Justine heard us because I saw her grin when she was in front of us and that made me happy. It also made me happy to see her in the UMass color guard because in Jason's words, she "leveled up". The show was amazing and George Parks was dancing around during it which made me smile even more. The band also sang better than Tower Singers ever could. Watching and listening made me tear up a bit in happiness for them and also in disappointment that I can't be a part of a band like that with such dedication and power. We caught up with them and I was happy to be around them since I missed them so much. After a few minutes of hugs and talking, they had to go back to the buses and so Jason and I headed to the snack bar for food and then we eventually left.
On the drive home, we discussed Otakon a whole lot and were relaxing when all of a sudden, some guy honks his horn at my dad a lot and pulls around us and cuts my dad off. My dad was like eh....whatever at first. Then the guy slammed on his brakes and my dad with super awesome reflexes managed to dodge an accident by pulling off to the shoulder. We pulled back on and the guy did it again. Again, my dad managed to dodge and made us take the guy's plate number down. We followed him to the All Seasons Diner where my dad confronted him. Since I get this sickly feeling when I'm around things like this, I got down and was sort of curled up on the seat next to Jason being like >.<. My dad later discovered that the guy had lots of PBA cards, but didn't have a license on him. My dad called the cops twice and after a while they showed up and got both sides of the story but then said to my dad "I don't get it....why did you approach him? If he had a gun, he could have shot you. Would you have wanted your family to witness that?". That angered me because that wasn't the real issue. The guy could have killed us if my dad wasn't watching. After a while, we left and the air was kind of tense.
Went for dinner, it's not sitting very well, I'm still a bit nervous from what happened. And Jason, if you're reading this, thanks for the support, I really appreciate it. As for my dad, he's going to sign a complaint against the guy meaning he's going to get points on his license. He was been pwned by the Karma Bus.
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| Shopping Sprees and friendships |
[01 Oct 2005|11:36am] |
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Wow, my hormones have been raging recently.
I think I've discovered the key to getting the guard to do their work. I just hope I'm right. And speaking of guard, we're learning the dance next practice to perform at the next game and eventually the pep rally. I can't wait for that because we've modified the uniforms for it and I bought the perfect hat for it today so I'm really really excited about it.
People are still getting to me a little bit, but I'm getting better. I just have to focus on doing well in school and I'll be out of here soon. Wohoo! Got in a fight with someone over advice and whose I should take....never cried so hard over it in my life...and yet it reformed me because it made me realize the maturity levels of those I hang out with. I can't be bothered with immature people, they only make me want to hurt something or someone.
Went to a giant garage sale today, bought some cosplay parts for various cosplays. Got wings for my new Kami cosplay. I also got my frying pan for Otakon, even if it isn't plastic like I wanted it's still awesome. On another note for Otakon, it is very likely that I will be boarding with Shei! ^.^! That's so devastating in my mind, you guys have no idea.
Time to shower. Later
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| The Army |
[24 Sep 2005|07:10pm] |
Hey guys. I want people to join the army.
The Malice Mizer cosplay army, that is. ^.~
What is it? It's a group of JRock cosplayers who get together holding random and amusing objects as weapons to "attack" overcosplayed characters. So what if you're not a JRock cosplayer? We will take other cosplayers as well who are willing to take pictures with us and be nice and stuff and give us ideas. What if you don't cosplay at all? Your loss.
Here's where you can find the link to it: http://www.livejournal.com/userinfo.bml?user=army_of_mizer
GO SIGN UP! NOW!
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This week has been full of ups and downs from every aspect of my life....now you get the priveledge of hearing about them.
Color Guard: The leaders and I get along really well, I'm shocked because I thought this year might have been a power struggle, however it isn't at all. Now the problem is that very few of the girls actually practice and are happy. People are so dramatic at guard, I'm ready to hand them over to Sweeney (the play/musical director). The job is simple. Practice. Show up. Be respectful. Stay focused. IS THIS THAT DIFFICULT?! ARGH!
Family: My parents have been bothering me a lot recently because they keep asking "are you okay? That time of month?" every time I start feeling down. No people, you're wrong, stop asking. I went out for dinner with my aunt Joanne and her boyfriend. That was awkward because I didn't want to say anything to him and everyone was quiet. I got sushi out of the deal, but I ate it so fast, I almost got sick. Soon enough I won't have to deal with these family outings that revolve around booze. I swear if my parents say we're going to that place again, I'm refusing and if they ask why, I'll say none of your damn business.
Cosplay: I've been planning things out for the Mizer Army with Shei-chan, we're slowly getting people to help us out and I'm excited about it. I also got the fabric for my homecoming dress, so I'll be starting that soon.
School: This year is off to a good start thus far. I've started my Japanese studies and am off to a decent start. My classes are fair, my electives are easier, and commons is annoying. Whatever. I do my work. If I'm lucky, I'll get really good grades and will be able to get out of finals this year. :: crosses fingers ::. I finally am finished with physical fitness testing. That damn mile run...ugh, how inconvenient and annoying it is
Music: I'm currently working on 2 songs for Prism....Tears and the Final Countdown. For Otakon, I'm working on the dance for Lu:Na, the violin part for Bois de Mervielles, and the lyrics for Gekka no Yasoukyoku. New interest in Singing Nippon by a band called Kishidan. Can't believe I didn't hear of it sooner. But whatever.
Misc: Picked up MK2 again, am rocking Mileena and Kitana. I sort of want to do a cosplay of Kitana eventually, but the nakedness involved scares me, so I may use the movie outfit instead. Being anti-social and totally loving it. And by that I mean I'm going out mo more than I have to. I'm going to see Paul McCartney in NY on the 5th, can't wait for that, I hear he's awesome in concert. I just hope that all the hype it's getting doesn't disappoint me.
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| ^.^ yay for awesome friends |
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I just want to take a minute here and give credit where it is due...my friend Shei recently passed her one year mark without self-mutilation. As someone who has a history of suicide attempts, I know it is hard to get there. I give her all the credit in the world because she's very brave and strong and just an awesome person.
So why is she so awesome, you may ask? There are a few reasons. Firstly, she can make me laugh when I am in the worst mood EVER. Or if she doesn't think a laugh is in order, she will help console me. I can really connect with her and it makes me happy to know that somewhere out there, someone understands. She and I also think alike and so our conversations are funny when we talk about people we don't like. I threaten to beat the people she doesn't like with a frying pan and she threatens to beat the people I don't like with a wiffle bat. And next off, she's one of the most helpful cosplayers I've ever met...but I'll get into that later.
So how did I meet her? I met her on soulseek. We started talking about my username at first and the more we spoke, the more we realized we had in common...then we saw we had a mutual friend that I met at Otakon 2004 and she was very good friends with at the time. We then discussed my cosplay and she was one of the only people that shed some hopeful light on it saying "well, atleast you tried". She coached me through the next cosplay set I made, which included sending me a labcoat for my Gackt cosplay. It makes me smile to think that she did that out of the kindness of her heart just so I could cosplay as Gackt before I lost the chance when my hair got cut. Now Otakon 2006 is on the way and we're planning to do Gackt and Kami Illluminati cosplays with her boyfriend going as Sho. I really can't wait for it for numerous reasons, including awesome picture ideas, karaoke and dancing, and hanging out with her a lot. So if you were planning on hanging with me at Otakon 2006, sorry, but I'm probably going to be with her the entire time...or atleast most of it.
Even though she doesn't live in the same state as me or anything and though we've never met face to face yet, I consider her to be my hero and one of my best friends. When I talk to her, I feel as if I can do anything I wanted to, and I know when I meet her in person it will be an incredible experience. She is one of the few people who I can really connect with, which is saying something.
It has come to my attention that people are wishing the worst for her, pain and for her streak of not cutting to stop. Let it be known right here and right now that I will not stand for that! Shei is an awesome person, how DARE anyone try to hurt her!!! I refuse to allow anyone to try to break her, she has been through enough. For anyone who tries, your soul will be damned into the deepest pits of hell where I will be waiting for you. Shei-chan is the butterfly who guides my soul to it's potential and I will not let anyone mess with her elegance, grace, beauty, or wisdom!
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